Just Me

So the question is who do I want to be…?
I want to be a queen and sit on a White Thorne
I want to be A woman of power!
I want to be a pretty pink flower,
I want to be a mighty dragon slayer
I want to be neat and tidy
I want to be a famous musician,
The kind of one that plays rock orchestrations
I want to be good at everything
I want to be the one who finds a cure for the common cold,
I want to be living my dreams
I want to be…basically every thing I think I am not.
But Most importantly I want to be
ME!!

If I were a queen, I couldn’t have as much fun, being me.
If I were a woman of power, well I wouldn’t like me.
If I were a pretty pink flower, there wouldn’t be me.
If I were a mighty dragon slayer, that wouldn’t be me either.
If I were neat and tidy, I could find things better, but life is meant to be a little crazy.
If I were a famous rock violinist, well life sure would be different.
If I were good at everything, then what would be the point of learning anything new?
If I were to find the cure for the common cold, there would be endless of possibilities to what I could do next.
If I were to be living my dreams, how long would the dream last?
If I were everything I think I am not, then I wouldn’t BE ME.
So since I am me…
…life certainly isn’t what I had originally thought it should be,
…and completely unexpected
…different
…I wouldn’t say better,
…and I wouldn’t say worse,
…something I could not have envisioned
…My life is the product of God’s sovereign will, and frankly I need to remember that more often then I do.
So life has its bumps and burses,
Twists and turns,
And mistakes and triumphs,
But all and all
Life for me anyway at this moment in time
Life is about discovery
Learning
Teaching
Submission
Pride
Walking
And loving.
God is teaching me that attitude in life, in how you view your circumstances, and how you treat others, really does reflect on were your heart is.
I started writing this thinking it would be a good poem, but instead I am learning about my heart and were it lies.