So This Is Christmas?

So this is Christmas?
Well yeah... in the words of my mother, "It is fainly winter (meaning the 22nd of December) and it is 50 something degrees outside, and we could have our new family tradition be that we wait until two days before Christmas Eve to decorate"
So that is my mommy for yeah. As long as I can remember she was never one to go all out for the Holidays in decorations and fancy stuff like that, Don't get me wrong we always had a tree, whether real or fake it didn't matter. But my stepdad on the other hand has always decorated real fancy like for Christmas. So mom and I, spent all day yesterday "decorating" Meaning we put up the tree and Randy's (that is my stepdad) little village. And once mom and I were done we looked at each other and go "We Have Christmas" meaning that we were satisified with the tree and the village, and in reallity it is probably more "christmas" then we have ever put up. Which is so exciting.
Merry Christmas

attachment?

So this goes out to all of yall that i am, was, and will be attached too.

Attachment, comes in all shapes and sizes, in various and different ways.
So I find myself attached to this guy not really, but in away that makes me cry that I didn't get to say good bye to him like I did. But it was ok because, our good-bye was just right for our friendship. I tried to dump him out of his chair and he punched me in my arm. -Philip thanks for being my friend.
So I am also attached to a girl as well, and frankly i am going to miss her so much, but the thing is i am not as attached to her as I once was... BUT what is so sad, I didn't get to say good-bye at all. Briana I love you and I miss you and I am going to call within the next couple of days to wish you a merry christmas..
Then my attachment goes to another guy, Mike you are my brother and frankly I am going to miss you so, The big bro that you are makes me smile...
Alan and John, what can i say iwas attached to you two as well, but for the most part I really enjoy our friendship.
Who else, who else, am I attached to as of now, Lydia you crazy girl I love you as well, Hopefully I will see you again at school.
oh and my roommate Crystal... Imiss her as well.
So ado, ado

Revise!

Ok, so I was frustrated earlier... and still am a little bit but you know that is ok, because I never claimed to be prefect.
Well actually the attitude ajustment came when I read my friend otty's xanga blog http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=bannermanp1
just know, and I realized I am not trusting God, the way I should, HE knows what HE is doing and that is enough.

Now to church, Riverview Rocks, But Yeah
I so need JESUS

JUNK!!!!!!!!!

I hate this I really do, I have so much stuff, and in reality I don't need it all, but some how I can't make myself get ride of it, and not because of sentamental value, but because for some reason I think I will needed it when I go home. And most of it is papers/notes from classes that I am unwilling to throw away. so what do I do, I put it in a Box and say I will get to it later, because in all truth it makes me so sad to think, I am not coming back next semester to the school I have come to love, well more the people, and I am afraid of it is going to come, even though i know that God has my life planned out, and if I just relay on him I don't have to worry about the future. But it isn't the future I am really scared about, I am scared about is, I don't think I will have enough time to get all the things I need to get done, which makes me very anxious, and nervous.
So besides going through all my stuff and thinking what i will and will not need at home is very strssfull which sucks.
But my roommate just asked if i need any help... and well it is answer to prayer. so laters

time of change

so it has been a while since i have said anything. So i thought i would say something.
So life as of lately has been sad and scary and crazy.
Last week tuesday, I made the decsion with my dean that it would be best for me to step out of school for the next year because frankly I can't afford to come back and it is going to take awhile for me to save up enough money so i can come back which is very sad But in all honesty, I am ok with that. You see I have been thinking for awhile that I needed to step out and see what else I can do, to get me ready to teach in a classroom oversees, and well I was also thinking of stepping out because of the MONEY. so I am going home to Seattle until Jan. 2007, and I am hoping in this next year i will be able to make some decsent relationships with the people in my church, and to get to know my step-father and my mom as a married lady

So now the crazyness of life well I know i have so much to do before the 18th of Dec, 1 i have to sell my car and pack and so much more to do that it seems to over whelm me to the max. But i know That my God is good, and ever faithful, and Through HIM everything is possible.

In Job 42:2 it say "I know that YOU can do all things, and that no purpose of YOURs can be thwarted."NASB
And i just thought that was really profound because, no matter what God has planned for my life His purpose for it will always be in His control and I don't have to worry that what will come of it.