I've Been thinking...

So I have been thinking... about relationships, the dating kind and the friendship kind...
YOU could say when we meet certain people then just leave a mark on us for good or for bad, but they do leave their mark on us an imprint you could say.
But when you become friends with someone/anyone for that matter, we really don't relize the imprint we have made on their lives.

Friends will come,
and friends will go,
But For a select few we keep in constant comunication with through out the years.
For those who are important to us do we keep updated, so when you ask me who are those who are important to me I will tell the ones i am in constant communication with. The ones who I share my life with, the ones who share theirs with me.

So to all of you,
New Friends, Old Friends and ones yet to be...
I just want to say that, I like our friendship,
with some I would like to get to know better,
and some well I think I might know too well
And others I am happy with knowing what they allow me to know.

I don't know just thought of this...When I came to New Tribes, I was scared I wouldn't make any good friends, those special few who you can share everything and anything with. But I did and I am making new ones as well. But it is funny how I pick and choose who gets to know what and who doesn't but then do I forget who I told what, so for the most part depending on the closeness i have with them I tell more info or less, Just depending on detailed I want to be.

So to all the friends of friends and of friends
Peace be with you.
Laters

The Reality of Life?

So I have been thinking that there are somethings that I just need to say right now...
One is that my expecations are never what they seem to be... meaning most of the time I have found it easier to little or no expecations for what is going to happen...because if I set my expecations high they are almost never met...but if i set them low or don't have any, I am completely and udderly amazed at how things all work out for the best, and can see both the good and the bad, but mainly the bad...So my question is, "how do I live life with low expecations...and not think negatively...To live optomisticly is that it?"
So when life comes down to it, I need to remember to take one day at a time, and never forget to stop and smell the roses and enjoy myself every once and a while and the people around me.

So I have been thinking that there are somethings that I just need to say right now...
One is that my expecations are never what they seem to be... meaning most of the time I have found it easier to little or no expecations for what is going to happen...because if I set my expecations high they are almost never met...but if i set them low or don't have any, I am completely and udderly amazed at how things all work out for the best, and can see both the good and the bad, but mainly the bad...So my question is, "how do I live life with low expecations...and not think negatively...To live optomisticly is that it?"
So when life comes down to it, I need to remember to take one day at a time, and never forget to stop and smell the roses and enjoy myself every once and a while and the people around me.

HMM... is it too much?

Ok... I know it has been a long time since i have updated anything in while, and I am so sorry those of you who want to know whats going on in my life as of recent...
So trails, worries, and hopes...
my trails are as this...well they have always been this...As of recent I got a job, not a job that i like or really want to be at, but it does pay the bills so it is a good thing; but the bad thing is what my job intails...
...it intails call people or they call me and tell me that they want there gas service shut off for one reason or another...or they want to make a payment, but freak out if they have an outstanding account balance and then start yelling at me. So have you guessed what I do right now?...I work in a call center so you could say I am an representative in the collection department for a gas company based out of chicago. So i deal with attitudes and different people from the greater Chicago area, fun. Not...they aren't very nice. But i am praying for them.
But I am ThankFul for this job, it is a good opportunity for me to show God's love in a place I would rather not be. Also, my co-works are really nice people, they help me out whenever i have a problem, which is many, because i don't understand or i am not sure how to do something. So that is good.
My deepests worries right now are school and my family. School just because, I feel like I am not getting all I need to be getting out of it right now just because i have been busy with work and relationships with friends and family, and I am just exahusted for the most part. Going to bed late just to finish my homework by the skin of my teeth or not finish it because "I haven't stopped running" since I got off the plain in August when I got back to school. I have been on constant go mood now what seems like forever, so i am getting worn down pretty quickly now. Which is sad because I don't feel like i have the time to relax and just have no homework hanging over my head.
Also, my family is in a kind of rough spot right now, one my mom and step-dad are worried about the things that newly-weds are normally worried about more or less, I mean not the things like will we have kids or that stuff because they are both close to their fifties and what not, yeah...(i don't think I have got a clear view on that one sorry!) And then my grandparents are old and really old thats the only way to explain them...And the biggest family issue is with my little cousin...just be praying for her and my aunt and uncle as they need to descide what is the best step to take...sorry for being vague but yeah i don't want to discuss all my families issue on the net.
Then My hope...My hope is that i become caught up on all my school work, but i don't know how too,...that I will see the good in my horrible job, and that i come to grips with the fact that there is more going on in the world besides my own little bubble...
Sorry for being so long and drawn out... and just random...or saddening, but yeah
laters

Here is a little ditti....

so i was thinking the other day of a song about Revalation... and it goes in the tune of brother john...

Revalation, Revalation
21:8, 21:8

Liars go to Hell
Liars go to Hell

Burn, Burn, Burn
Burn, Burn, Burn


Revalation 21:8 (NASB)

"(A)But for the cowardly and unbelieving and abominable and murderers and immoral persons and sorcerers and idolaters and all liars, their part will be in (B)the lake that burns with fire and brimstone, which is the (C)second death."

My focus is lacking...

So I can't consintrat, i am going out of my mind, and I have 5 hours of prophets homework to do that is do tomorrow, at least 2 hours of Life of Christ, and still 5 hours of lectures left to do. So I am stressing out, not only am I worring about all the homework i have do, but I also have two test on thursday that i am going to miss that i am going to take on Thursday night because well I have a major timeline due on Monday. My head hurts, I don't know how well I am going to do in my prophets class... grrr why is so hard for me... But all I can do is to do my best and well my best is going to have to be enough, and I am also going to have to realise even though life maybe hard right now, I can't let it get the best of me... So what is it I need to do, Just sit back and relax and get what I need done and go to be by 12 so I am rested, and then start all over again. if I get behind I get behind, but I need to do what is do for the next day first.
sigh... back to work with you, you shumck... so yeah

Work...Life...School...Sleep...Relationships...

So I got a job... and a promotion...
So live is good...
But with my promotion i have to miss all my classes, which really stinks big time...
But with missing my classes i get to listen to all my classes on tape or recording luckly me...
So with prophets down... i have half of life of Christ down... and then dispensations. Then after all the lectures are done I need to work on my Job homework...
I feel like i am complianing way to much, but i am a little overwhelmed with life in general.
But I can do this, I know i can, But the thought of how much i have to do this week is going to stress me out to the max.
So what i need to do is simple,
it is to focus, and focus on what needs to be done, and not just to be done for just barly staying above water. My focus needs to stay on...if not i know i will surely drown.

So with out further ado, I think i will go to bed, and let tomorrow's worries worry about themselves, because if not, i know i will become sick as a dog.
Laters