Surprise!!!

So in light of being my birthday tomorrow, I got throwen a progress surprise party!!!

So yesterday morning I go to brunch and briana and i start talking about stuff i don't really remember what, Then she says to me "we aren't going to go get coffee this morning" I looked at her like ok, that makes me sad kind of thing because we were going to go have coffee together and do our homework and stuff at Beaner's. And then she says "we aren't going because i have throwen you a surprise party... and she tells me you will need your swimsuit and a towel and your bible because we are going to Riverview after wards." And thats all she told me. and to be ready by 11.

So I met her were we are to meet people to go to a lake near hear, and it was so much fun, and relaxing that i wish every Saturday that it could be nice and warm and sunshiney so that we could just go relax near a lake and be clamed by God's glory.

So after the lake we went to applebee's to half virgin strawberry daiquiris. But we ended up having a late lunch early supper type of meal. There were like 15 people there, And of course me being myself, I choose to sit in the very middle by the wall, so when the applebees people came out to sing to me, I was trapped and i couldn't run away. I had forgotten about that, I turned very red in the face. I was surprised at that.

Then we went and watched a movie, we ended up watching Edward Scissorhands because i had never seen it. It was such a sad movie, and very strange edding that it made me think. OH well. But Briana and Mike were going to rent The Count of Mounti Cristo, because it is one of my favorite movies and so forth, but the rental place was out of it, how sad, Oh well.

The we went off to church, It was really good, It was something i need to hear. The pastor talked about how we must not compare ourselfs to those around us, and say at least i am not like that sinfull person over there.

After church we were going to go the parlor in lansing, but sadly by the time church was done it was 10pm and most likely it was closed.
But we did end up going to some of our fellow students' place to watch a movie and have some icecream anyway so that was good. We ended up watching The Boogieman. CREEPY!! And strange endding.

But yeah, I had an awesome day, I wasn't excepting it and it was fun.

Thank you so much Mike and Briana, I know how much time it took to plan and think through. I had so much fun.

Today was the day

So today was another trying day in my life, another one of my friends left school for the semester and won't be coming back until the next one or the one after that. I mean 1st John left and now Cristen. How many more are going to leave.

This just breaks my heart that my class which is so small to begin with is getting smaller week by week, well not really but we did loose 2 people in about a weeks time.

So as i sit in my room procrastinating on some deep homework, I think to myself that reflection is on its way again. And the questions that role around in my head are those like "Why I am I going to New Tribes Bible Institute?" "What is it that is my end goal?" "Do I see myself in missions?" "Will my being a student here make any difference at all?" and the big one "Can I support myself through another year and half of Bible School?"

And the funny thing is while revaulating everything in the last week, no i can't support myself, I don't know if being a student here is going to make any difference, no i don't see myself going into missions, but i do see myself supporting missionaries, maybe by teaching their kids in the MK schools. My end goal, well I needed to be reminded of it the other day and that is to grow and deepen my relationship with My God who is the God of the Universe, who is, who was and who is yet to come, That has been my goal all a long. And then why am I putting myself through two years of Bible school? Well that is probably the simplest of all, I am here at NTBI because this is were God wants me, and frankly who am i to argue.

So if you think of it be praying for me, that my focus comes back into sight/that i won't become discouraged and give in by quitting and no matter what happens that I will do what my God wants me to.

How many more?

How many more are going to leave?
how many more will I never see again?
When will the hurt and sorrow leave?
Why do horrible things happen in threes?
Who is next? I pray not you or me or them?
Why do unavoidable cercumstances happen?

Who knows what tomorrow might bring, for tomorrow is a mystery in and of itself.

2 down, how many more to go? Who will it be, is it me? NO! I will press on, I will conintue with the work that is in front of me, but not by my STRENGTH, because i am weak, but by GOD'S, because HE is strong! i will make it through.

Tomorrow, tomorrow

Ok so I wrote this about a year ago, but it is how I am feeling sort of today:

Tomorrow, Tomorrow
How often do we say Tomorrow,
I will do it tomorrow.

Probably more then we should
I'll do it tomorrow Mom.
I find myself saying tomorrow
all the time.

Tomorrow I will do the dishes,
Tomorrow I will clean my room.
Tomorrow, Tomorrow, Tomorrow!

But Tomorrow isn't promised,
Not even the next 10 minutes are promised.

So instead of waiting for tomorrow
do it today or even better yet
when you are asked
or when the desire hits
Don't wait until it is too Late.

If you love someone,
tell them,
and if you like someone,
tell them
But don't wait until it is too late.

So Tomorrow, will come and tomorrow will go, I guess what I am trying to get across is that tomorrow is a long ways away. And all we can do is hope for the best and perpare for tomorrow the best we can. So when I have homework that is due a couple days from now, I know I shouldn't put it off till tomorrow because then tomorrow will be filled with things of today. And it isn't good to live in the past, and it isn't good to live in the future, All you can do is live in the moment, and deal with whatever comes your way.

This has been my mind talking its way through the day.