When life throws you lemons...

So life is crazy as it should be...
Well it seem to me that Life is what you make and what it needs to be right now for me is that I need to be content with all things and that being content or something contentment isn't the right word isn't the word i am looking for.
Does anyone have any words that are like contentment but different in meaning somehow?

So I am back at school and I love it but somehow I am just off. I am extermly tired, and I am in a strange sad funck that I really don't want to be in... for the fact that I don't like to be sad... and it is making me sort of depressed and that is somewhere I really don't want to go...

It is great to be back with Bri and John and Michelle but some thing is missing, or at least someone Alan I miss you, and so does everyone else. But you are were God wants you to be So that is a Good (GOO :D) thing.

So I got placed in one of the outside house dorms, I mean it is a wonderful dorm and almost all the other girls would love to be out here but I am having some stuggels with being out here, one I don't like that fact that I am separated from all the 3rd floor life, and separated from my friends as well. But I really do like the fact that I got placed out here for the fact that I believe I will be able to get my homework done in a timely fashion and not have to stay up till 1am to do so, or stay up till then and hang out with friends and such..... All I know is that there is a reason for me being in a house this semester, and that God has a much big reason for me to be in the house then I can think of... So it will be good for me in many ways.

I believe that this semester is going to be a time for growth and reflection and new possiblities and doors that I haven't thought of...

Ado, ado
Good night to all

The Flight and Friday

The Last 48 hours… Aug. 12th

So in the last 48 hours I think I have gotten about 12 hrs of sleep total, which is fine except during that was a three hour time change… Which is all good and stuff but when it is around midnight in Seattle it is about 3 in the AM in Michigan so it is a little tough but I will get through it.
So my plane ride yesterday was enjoyable, or as enjoyable as flying for 7hrs can be…
I had a 3 hr layover in Dullas which is in DC so that was fun (for the most part), I had to wait so long because the airlines bumped me up a flight coming out of Detorit because the flight I was going to take was completely full so instead of being at the airport around noon yesterday (the 11th) I had to be there around 10ish, so, So much for sleeping in, But it turned out to be good because I got to hang out with Wonder and Falcor and Wampa at the airport for a while which was fun, we read a Happy Bunny book called when Love Bites. I thought it was quite humorous except when it came to sharing a bathroom with your crush at that point I just said I think that is enough of this book and put it down.
So I got on the plane slept a bit, but who really has a good sleep on the plain, with strangers all around and people talking and Strawberry Shortcake playing in the background.
So when we were flying over the Rockies I got really excited… WELL I thought they were the Cascades so since I haven't seen any MOUNTAINS in like forever or what seems like forever I got so excited. But from then was only like two more hrs away from home. OH well it was a long Flight. But I made it home

My Day….

So my day today was pretty good I think,
It was crazy but not as bad as I thought it would be because one my mom let me sleep in till like 9:30 in the morning which is like 12:30 in the after noon in Michigan. So I got to sleep in late which was so nice since I haven't done that in a long while.

So the day was a good day not as stressfull as i thought it would be. So the day began with mom and I heading off to JCPennys to pick up my dress very pretty. The we went to a Starbucks and some coffee together and a Cinommen Bon so good. Then we sreached the the mall for shoes and mom and I got matching shoes very fun. Then after that we tried to find a drycleaner that would have our dressys steamed close to five a clock in the evening which is about closing time almost everywhere, and then to have them ready by 11 the next morning is like asking for the moon or something, All the cleaner people looked at mom and I like we were crazy or something.

So my mom decided that she would just iron the dresses herself, and that we needed to get our nails done. So we went to the nail place and got our finger nails done, they are very pretty. Also we got our toes painted as well which is very different because both mom and I have never had our toesies painted before so new experiences all the way round.

Then after the whole nail fun we went off to go decorate the chapel were mom was to get married, my aunt was there and so was my moms Good friend and in fact the two of them seemed to work well with each other for the most part. It was good it wasn't as crazy as I had origanlly thought, But it was still crazy Which was good.

So that was my Day

My Mind is Full and running around in Cricles!!!

So I get to go home in a couple of day like 4. I am so excited, but some how my heart is trouble by emotions and the anticaption of seeing my mommy. Don't get me wrong I can't wait to see her and I can't wait for school to start up again. But somehow my mind is running in cricles and I can't seem to get a hold on it.
HMM...
Lately at camp I have been feeling a little emotionally impaired... Hmm... Something anyway doesn't seem to set quite right with me...
Last weekend I was finally able to escape the "Bubble" of Michindoh and it felt so good, that I didn't want to go back to camp. I stopped by New Tribes on my way back to camp and it felt so weird almost sadding... I became a little sad when I stepped into the building well for one I had gotten the news Alan wasn't coming back and two I relized my sophmore semester was going to be so different and so new that I don't know what to expect.
Hmm... School is something I have been looking forward to all summer, but somehow I am not sure if I am to be hear after my sophmore semester... I want to know where God is Leading me but I am really fuzzy on it lately...
My mind is so overwhelmed with hopes and dreams and fears and the anticapations of seeing my mom that I can barley think past the time of day that it is.

But one good thing that will come from all this spinning in cricles is I know that I will be able to consintrate on the things I am looking forward to doing, Like Cedar Point tomorrow and seeing my friends from camp Wonder and Falcor on Monday, and then on Thursday seeing my mommy... things I am looking forward to.
So I guess I just need to live day-by-day, moment-by-moment... And whatever comes my way I just need to deal with it.

Sodding

Ok for the last two days I have been sodding my life away it seems... Yuck and I have been so dirty that i think i will never get clean but at last there is always a shower at the end of the day...

Because I was sodding Monday and Tuesday, I sprained my wrist which really sucks because it hurts so bad but I get to wear this really "COOL" spilint for the next five days isn't that exciting. But in way my brace is aquward and uncomfortable and it drives me nuts but it is all good. :D

I can't wait for school to be back in full swing of things also I can't wait to see my mom in the next week it will be so good to be home for awhile, I can't wait.

Anyway I got to fly