my thoughts

so my thoughts today are scrambled as they normally are, but something is different, something is just a little bit clearer then all the rest. and that is...
...Home,
is where the heart is.
but is it simpler then that?
you see, I don't feel like i have a home church anymore, well I still have the church i grew up in basiclly but all my friends are gone, hardly anyone in the church know that i am there and when i am not. So i know it is time for a change,
...but change, do i really want a change?
Change is hard, and most of the time it is a really good change,
...like moving away to some hole in the wall city to go to bible school,
or moving back home to get to know ones family,
or even taking a job you really don't want, but want because it will be making the smallest of difference.
So my change for now is we moved from north to south and now i am ready to change churchs. Ready to start back up with school, and ready to find another job so i can buy a car to get me to and from work, school, home, church, and any where else i wish to go,
weather it be the moon, or michigan, or where ever my dreams my lead me.
so here is to my rambling thoughts for today

Ashley

So, when I was really little about 3 to 6, I had this doll named Ashley, and I think I liked her lots or she was my favorite doll. But then we moved from Chicago to Seattle and some how she got lost in the hossil of the move, and well I don't have my Ashley doll anymore. However, because I liked the doll so much, my mom was in consant search for another "Ashley Doll", (Ashley was the name of the Brand/Style of a particular doll; so I think). So after 3 or 4 years of living in the greater Northwest mom fianly found an Ashley for me, it was the same as the one i had lost in a store so of course she got me it, and i was thrilled, except one thing it wasn't my Ashley.
I still have the new Ashley, that replaced my Ashley, and well i look at it still see the difference between the two. But the funny thing is the two are completely the same, except the Doll that was lost important to a small girl, the Doll that was the replacement was just that a doll and not a special friend.
So for the thought of things young children know the differences between special toys and toys that aren't so special to them.
So the questions is what makes a toy specail and what makes it not so special to a child?