STESS!!!

Stress what can I say about it, well for me it is not worth the anxitey, the worry, the furstration, and the after facts like getting sick, sleeping for a couple of days, and well not being able to function. These are all the bad stress like overthinking school work, or work work, or thinking things like I have all of this stuff to do in a mater of 3 days or so how am I going to get it all done.
Stress for me just leads to a whole lot of bad things like worry that I wont get every thing done. And it also leads to me being sick afterwards because i have the time to unwind and relax I get sick, and With school work it is usually stressfull getting all the projects done and studying for my finals so at the end when I have a break I can't enjoy it as I would like to because I am sick in bed with a 102 feever and I just don't have the energy to spend my break the way I want to or would like to and that doesn't include being sick.
I try to relax during the whole process of projects, I know I will get them done, and I will try to do my best on them, that is all I can do, and of Course the most important thing is to give God my worries and anixities and stresses because I know he can deal with them and get me through. So for me while I am working hard on a project I try to take a break every 45 Min to an hour for 10 to 15 mins getting a drink doing things that will relax my mind a little then go right back to what I was doing or work on something else school related.
So mind is wondering off and some other topic, But stresser and stress are things we all face and how we deal is what is important, all you can really do is, is to do your best, and know that you did it, and then not worry so much.
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Moosa Foosa the "FAT CAT"

What Makes Us Human

What makes us human? The deep passions we feel for love, or hate? Or is it more, when we love, we set conditions? Or how about when one of our loved ones start to pass away, we want to do everything we can to make it so they don't go, we can't accept our family member or friend might leave of us forever. Because if we accept that they are going to die, then it means we have given up on them, and the life they still could have. Even Christians do it to other Christians, they know they will see them again, but still they can't let their loved one go, because it is too hard to say goodbye, i love you always, and i will miss you something fierce, but go be with God because He is calling you home.
Why is it so hard for some to say? And others it is a simple for them to say?

5am Wake Up Call!

"Randy, Randy, one of the Birds got out! Catch the dogs, Put them in there Bed!" screams the hystrical woman.
20 minutes later
"No, Moosa! NO, Moosa! MOOSA, NO!!!!" sobs the man almost in tears.
In walks the girl, half blinded from sleep and she doesn't have her glasses on, she sees the Bird flutter away behind the mechine, she takes two to four step picks up the Bird and wonders if it is ok, the next thing the man takes the bird gives her to the woman, and the girl goes back to bed.

So that was my morning the other day, The dumb cat(Moosa) got the stupid bird, the crazy dogs were in there bed, and mom and randy were in hystearics, me well I got woken up 30mins early not happy. But in the end we were all ok, except the bird, she died that night.
Very sad.

Mind's Eye

Somedays, i think it would be complete genius if we could take a look inside our mind, and really see whats going on in there. To see all of our thoughts, or even our dreams.

I think that when there is a loss of something, weather it be car keys or a friendship that once was, wouldn't be nice just to take a peek inside our mind and figure out why you stop being friends, or were those keys got too?

Sometimes I wonder were the time has gotten too, Wasn't yesterday that i was in high school? But now that I am 22 I think wow, I have been out of school for almost 4years, that just seems crazy to me.

The point is mind is filled with things that happened yesterday, last week, a year ago, and even more then that. My memories, are alwas replaying themselves as like a movie into my life, so make sense, some don't but I guess that is my Mind's Eye playing itself.

When a certain memory is hit just right I almost feel like I am reliving that part of my life, Or my expersince have made me who I am today. But I don't feel like I am anydiffernet then the person who seems so farway, or so much younger then myself or even so long ago.

Weird, how when we think back on ourselfs, we see us as we are now, but not really as we were then, when we were little being big seemed like it would never happen, but now that we are big being little seems like a life time ago.

I have been thinking about the time right after i graduated high school lately, it seems like so long ago, but in truth it was only been 3years. I think about how excited i was to go see Priates at the drive-in, and how about this time 3years ago, We had just moved in to a house, and how I couldn't wait to go see LOTR Return of the King at midnight openning day, with all my buddies from high school. And even thinking about getting married, which even now, I am like whow because even though i want to get married, I wasn't really mature enough to be thinking about it, or grown up enough to relize what a comittment it really is.

Anyway i am rambling about nothing really imparticular because that is how my mind seems to spit things out, in a random order that I have a hard time fallowing.
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FAILURE

So failure, what is it excatly and what does it mean to fail?
I guess everyone fails at something once in their life, but how do they get over it, and how do they not let it run over any new prospecs of the area they might have periously failed in or think they have.

What bothers me is, even though i know i can do something, but have tired in a different setting, i am afraid i will fail again, in the new setting.
I mean I try ride off my failure, by joking about like its no big deal, but to me it is, and i am not sure i know how to get past it so i can move on.

I guess I just need to take the plunge and get it over with, but the fear that i could fail is taunting me. And that is no good, because it makes me mad that I am letting my fears get the best of me, and makes me want to prove to myself that i can, and i know i can. But the sad thing is, my fear is stronger then my pride so fear wins, because i don't fight it. So now all i need to do this take a tiny step forward and hold my ground against myself, and then keep taking the steps to over come, my fear. Because I see were i want to go and what i want to be doing, but 1st i need to Deal with myself.

And thankgoodness for my stuberness of not wanting fear to win, so iam go to take the 1st step even though it is the scarest of all.

California

So my family and I meaning mom, and randy and me took a little trip down to California this last weekend and boy was it a trip. Our trip consited of 17hrs down to San Farnsico and who knows how long back but a whole lot longer.

The reason for our little family adventure was that my cousin Fawyna was finally getting married to her long term boyfriend of 5years Alberto, who i already considered family, but now is offically my new cousin. Pretty cool I think.

There wedding was really beautiful, they got married in a little chapel called, "The Chapel of our Lady", in the old militry base called the Persidio.

But I am getting ahead of myself here. The road trip started out around 9:30 pm on Thursday night and ended at 5:30am on Monday Morning, so Today.
We drove stright through to San Fransico, stopping every few hours for potty breaks and for gas, and to stretch our legs. Mom and I would have been fine just stopping for gas and every once in while for the bathroom, but Randy has really long legs, hence him being about 6'5", and he doesn't do well in the car for long periods of time either, so it took long time getting down there. And then we had to stop and look at the view point for Mt. Shasta. Very pretty view. But it had taken us all night to get into California and I was really tired that didn't want my picture taken but Randy got one, while i was leaning on Mom oh well. And there was this pretty cool old farm house that we got a picture of as well.

When we finally got into San Fransico, we got lost trying to find our hotel, and we came across and interseting shop called "Out of the Closet" with male manicines in the window display wearing women's swim suits, and dresses. Needless to say my mom and randy and i got the gigles, just because we were not expecting a store like that as we drove down the street looking for our hotel. So at last we found our hotel, and it wasn't very good, but it worked out for us.

The hotel was right across the Parking Lot were my cousins rehersal dinner was at so she invited us to come. It was as this Japaness Resturant, that was mainly a more athentic sushi bar. But not everything was rare fish. (it is just something about rare fish, eating it isnot for me, I guess it is because I always think of Lord of the Rings when Golum says "Give it to us raw and wriggling.") Anyway, the food was wonderful I had ordered vegtable Tempura, oh so good, but the funny sad thing was, the survice was really bad, I mean there were about 21 people there and about 8 people Randy and myself inclued were forgotten about by the waiters, so we didn't get our meal until everyone else was done with thiers.

So the next day was Saturday, the day of my cousin's wedding, and well we sleep in until 1:30 in the afternoon, and Fawnya and Alberto were to get married around 4-4:30ish so you can guess that we were running a little late, but not really cause we were only about 5 blocks from the Persudio which was great. For us, cause we couldn't get that lost.

Then we went across the Golden Gate Bridge to the reception. There was dancing and a full dinner meal, it was great. Basically a big old party going on at the bay in the top part of a resturant. My aunt was have a blast dancing away, I think it was a good time for my family, I know I had fun.

So On Sunday we pack up the car and check out of our hotel about 10:45 which was good cause it was bad room, my mom had some thing to say about it. But that is besides the point.

We ended up stopping at In-and-Out Burger, and I am sorry to say but I don't get the big thing about it, beside every thing is fresh, and pretty descent for the prize you pay, the food was good, but not as good as it had been discribed by all my California Friends. But I did find that the atmospher was pretty cool, just watching all the workers being very busy and yet working really well together, that was impressive.

So we final were able to get home around 5:30 monday morning. And slept.
That was my big Weekend...
Hopefully the next time I go to California, I will see different things and don't sleep the whole way through it either.